Chronicling Depression

I had an episode today. I've been feeling down since Saturday but yesterday was the worst. I had to push myself though because I couldn't miss a shooting day, it was the last for that film anyway. I was sleepy and hungry the whole day, I would fall asleep anywhere and eat anything handed to me.

When I woke up this morning, I was feeling worse. I slept the whole day and despite the incessant feeling of hunger, I didn't get up to eat until 7pm.

Then I decided to clean my room to relieve stress and now I feel like I'm about to get sick. I still have a lot of work to do but I have to rest.

Bad Day

I must remain calm and not forget to eat, exercise, hydrate, and take a bath. I'd like to think that I can do this. I have overcome this in the past and can do so again today.

I know that I'll regret sulking and all I can do is wish that people would not judge.

Dear 3am

I missed this, just being with you.

Although I also miss him, being with him. Though I haven't been with him alone at this hour.

I long to enjoy you again, reading, writing, or watching old films with always brought me a different kind of peace and a good kind of solitude.

I'm done with one project but there are more. My soul is urging me to take a step back and rest but I know that I have to push myself to do more. Not because I am addicted to getting things done but because one important piece of life is creation.

To love and to create, as long as I live.