30.4.11

Please.

Enough! (Para!)
Older brother, by the side. (Kuya, sa tabi lang.)

You already. (Ikaw na.)

for that bittersweet forbidden breathtaking creature

funny how you make me nervous about this
and sometimes about other things
like will he laugh or is this too much or will he like it

crazy how i think about how you smell like a place i've always dreamt of going to
but wouldn't know because i haven't yet
and yet you feel like something i have been in the past
like that tireswing two blocks away

i wish my eyes had a camera
so i wouldn't have to always give you a second look
or a third
and read you like a favorite chapter of the book
again and again
and see the layers, and discover new things
everytime i do
figuring out the surface
and getting amazed by the depth

and i'll take you places
literally and not so
and tell you things
i wouldn't dare let you know
know your favorite song, learn it and sing it
know your favorite film, watch it, memorize it, re-enact it
know you and your desires
may it be wordly may it be romantic
may it be idealist
like spend a day inside your brain
see what you follow what you crave
which revels you

and i don't know if i should say this
at this time
and by this
but heck, i'm the one writing
for your information
you. drive me wild. man.
i would like to know which words you use the most
put them in a little black notebook
so i would never forget

discover the known and the unknown
take what i can get