Okay, I'm going to get fired from work today. kthxbyeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Biglaan

hazy, like the night
you touched me
I flinched, both from
fear and ecstasy

we live for the anticipation
counting the days of not knowing
where one is, what one feels
until we meet on the stage
behind the curtains

please let this not be farce

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Sa bawat tanong, bawat piglas,
bawat pagdadalawang-isip
at pagtataka kung bakit nga ba,
ang tanging sagot na maibibigay ko:
Para sa 'ting dalawa

Papalapit, mula magkatabi hanggang magkadikit
Gusto ko, ayaw ko, mali 'to, ngunit
naging saksi ang bukang-liwayway
kung alin ang bungang pinatamis
at alin ang hininog nang kulang at pilit

Naalimpungatan pa, gising nang damdamin
Ito ang uniberso at wala tayong panalo
"Masyado kang nakakatuwa," bulong ko sa kawalan.
Nginitian ko s'ya at tinignan nang matagal
bago tumayo at naglakad papalayo

post hoc ergo propter hoc

I knew it. Things were going to crumble sooner or later. Now things are impossibly complicated and I'm losing grip of myself. I should just give up on life altogether, I just keep messing it up anyway.