I have been unconsciously avoiding writing recently because I'm afraid that it would make more in touch with my feelings.
Last Friday was F's birthday so I was feeling a little emotional even there's no reason to. Good think I woke up late and got up even later. I greeted him through text and he jokingly asked for a gift when he replied. I told him only boyfriends receive shoes, flings do not apply.
A was busy with raket so we couldn't meet. I decided to jog eventually, asked B if he wanted to come and was surprised when he said yes.
It was a good run. It felt like the good type of familiar. We were back to between three and four months ago; we just had recently gotten closer and amused with each other and the new friendship. Him probably knowing what I want but have no intentions of going there. It was a good evening run. I would have liked to still hang out afterwards but also knew we shouldn't. I'm being careful. I easily get attached and become clingy to people. It was just a happy moment to have ran with him.
Nobody was home so I texted G if he was in the area. He dropped by the house and we smoked. Lately people have been asking me if there was anything between us or why isn't there. I always told them that it's just that, I love the guy and I care about him, but never in a sexual way.
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Last Saturday I went out with my roommate K and our friend Gy. I met up with a stranger after that. I did not like him.
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Went straight after the date to C's apartment. We're meeting again now because he's going to give me money.
I'm a whore.
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