Dear Doctor

I would like to give my sincerest apologies because I'm deeply infatuated. Please don't get mad. I didn't intend for this to happen.

I'm back

I miss going to the doctor. I have totally neglected myself and I recognize that now. I need to take care of myself more. I need to be with my family. I've been sucked in by the grandeur of youth. I must find balance.

Nevermind this infatuation I am supposed to be feeling but could no longer because I'm not manic. I must watch my mood and feelings especially when I'm manic. Being down, at least I know I'm down and I try my best to fight even if only in my mind, even if I could not. But being manic, I revel at how high up I am and forget.

So, fuck stress, fuck crushes, fuck drugs. Let's do this. Let's get better once again.

Dahil Gusto Kita

Ang gulo ng lahat, internal at eksternal, ngunit masaya ako kapag kasama ka. Sapat na ba 'yon? Handa akong maghintay hanggang ika'y maging handa; hahawakan mo ba ang kamay ko? Sana'y bigyan mo naman ako ng pagkakataon, hindi na baleng mabigo. Bigyan mo na ako ng sagot, hindi ko man matanong.

Ngayon lang ako naka-relate sa kantang Bakuran, utang na loob.