C didn't visit. I really felt bad. In addition, I wasn't feeling "normal" again. But now I guess I am back to being okay. One hell of an emotional rollercoaster ride, I tell you.
I don't think I should see him for a while, maybe for just a couple of days. I think I need the space. I have to put my wall back up. Build up my defenses. Re-assess my disposition and how I see myself in this relationship.
But I know I wouldn't be able to stand it. One, I am, self-admittedly (and not proud of it), dependent to him. Two, I love (LOVE) having sex. Three and most importantly, he's currently the closest friend that I have.
So messed up.
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