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If I am going to define myself as a person, what would the 15 films be? Here's what I wrote down?

1. Fish Story
2. Ghost World
3. The Hedgehog
4. Kisapmata
5. Soy Cuba
6. Spirited Away
7. High Fidelity
8. Easy A
9. Dazed and Confused
10. How to Train Your Dragon
11. Ora Pronobis
12. Whisper of the Heart
13. The Godfather I and II
14. Pan's Labyrinth
15. punyetang Before series

I'm not sure with the last two. I might also include Totoro, but that's too obvious. Weird that there is no Disney film in the list? I like Beauty and the Beast and Mulan. But I adopted a lot of sensibilities from Mulan and values from The Lion King so they should be in that list too. I also saw Empire Records a lot of times on cable and yeah, that was and important part of my teenage years, even moreso than Almost Famous and Detroit Rock City. I've seen a lot of good films but not really as important to me as the above. If I should revise it:

Fish Story

Ghost World

The Hedgehog

Kisapmata

Mulan

Spirited Away

High Fidelity

Easy A

Dazed and Confused

How to Train Your Dragon

Ora Pronobis

Whisper of the Heart

The Godfather I and II

Pan's Labyrinth

The Lion King

Empire Records

punyetang Before series

Maybe Moonrise Kingdom should also be somewhere there. And if you would consider that Cheese documentary a film. Of course there's the Harry Potter series which is not really as important to me as the books so... And Shake, Rattle, Roll, Halimaw sa Banga, Patayin sa Sindak si Barbara, and Pa-Siyam were all my favorites. Also I'm still afraid of Freddy Krueger. My mom said I used to love ET and Ewoks. And maybe if I'm going to be totally honest I would include Freaky Friday, Parent Trap, and Mean Girls.

Alien

Minsan iniisip kong mag-quit na lang, tapos burn bridges. Tamang wala na lang akong pakialam. Ayoko na nitong mga ganitong bagay. Hindi ko rin alam kung anong problema ko pero heto na naman ako sa pangit na mood ko. Ganitong-ganito rin this time last year (o mas malala iyon). Ang bilis ko na namang mainis. Bukod sa wala nang pahinga, nakukulangan ako sa ibinibigay ng lahat ng tao. Hindi yata talaga ako para sa mundong 'to.

badtrip mammeh

oo badtrip na naman ako dahil tangina sana tantanan mo na 'ko tangina wala ka bang ibang kaibigan at talagang dito ka pa talaga sa malapit di ko talaga alam kung wala ka ba talagang EQ o nag-e-enjoy ka lang talaga makasakit ng ibang tao ilang beses mong ipinamukha sa 'kin na ako 'yung masama manipulative overreacting megalomaniac pero tangina mo hindi ako kasing sama mo bwisit ka iniiwasan ka na nga e bakit dinadalaw ko ba mga kaibigan mo kinukuha ko ba sila para sa shoot ko kapal mo rin e sana umalis ka na ng bansa or something hindi pa ba sapat lahat ng sakit tangina moooooooooo kahit anong sabihin mong hindi mo kasalanan hindi mo matatanggal lahat ng tanginang sakit tangina ka ilang beses mong pinamukha sa kin na masama akong tao ngayong maayos ako narerealize ko na tangina hindi ako yon dahil eto ako ganito talaga ako kapag wala ka hindi ako masamang tao sige babay enjoy tangina

Wala akong interes sa pag-ibig na hindi ko ikawawasak

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Were

I was going to talk about something then I forgot what. Ever since I stopped reading, I feel like I don't have the right to write anymore. I only talk crap these days and I know I'm not worth reading. 

I don't wish to become younger but if only things can go back to how there were before. I made more sense then than I do now that I actually have the chance to actualize my visions. I was better dreaming and thinking of things that I could do. I don't have anything to offer this world anymore. I am just a slave to other people trying to build their dreams.

But maybe I need to learn to be more patient. And maybe it will pay off. Of course there's also the chance that it wouldn't but I can't be bother into thinking that right now, else I will have a serious breakdown. I thought I liked doing this but every time I'm doing it, the only thing I look forward to is getting a break and boy, I don't think I'll be having one anytime soon. And boy, do I want one so badly. My life doesn't even have room for my crazy anymore. And I not being allowed to be crazy is what's been driving me crazy. It's difficult to explain but having to go against your body's will everyday is absolutely exhausting. And so said Sylvia Plath, "I am so busy keeping my head above water that I scarcely know who I am, much less who anyone else is."